vanitas

May 6

i came home to find a dead cat in my pool.

i couldnt stop crying and screaming. all my cats were on the ledge of the pool staring wide eyed down at the floating body. it was so terribly sad and horrific. the pool is full of chemicals and the water level is so low. i just couldnt stop thinking of the poor thing falling into the pool and struggling to get out then all those chemicals… and it crying. just to think this is someones pet. its all just so awful. it took me forever to calm down, and now i am trying to think if this is an omen of some sort.

gut wrenching.  ugh.

this is the only relevant thing i could find

“Cats themselves are quite resourceful and tend to give us messages of change, flexibility of adaptability. Often, when a cat makes an uncommon appearance in our lives it is a message for us to shake up our habitual routines and make some fresh changes in our lives, as well as be more flexible in our thinking.”