Pretty On The Inside
today was my first “photoshoot”
that was not by a friend, but a “photographer”
i am using these terms loosely because the situation is still unfolding so to speak. anyway, im not sure how i feel about everything yet. i was feeling pretty confident and vain until i saw how i actually look. i am usually pretty hard on myself, but these past two week recovering from surgery and not being able to work out is pretty obvious. i have another shoot on tuesday. so i am going to have to drink as much of my organic green tea as possible, call the doctor, and work out till i cannot move.
i am so disappointed that i let myself gain weight. i was in my prime and got comfortable, silly girl. comfortability kills everything.
NEVER AGAIN. i am going to stay focused, because if i dont someone else will, this is my chance, my youth is my ticket, and even that is slipping away.
wish me luck, and the strength & determination to perseviere.
and spell hah.
much love.
